BeachWeek day 2

Well day 2 started off a little rocky with over sleeping due to only 4 hours of sleep. I was not able to get a workout in because I did not want hubby to be late to work. This mornings breakfast was 1 serving of cheerios with a little bit of 2% milk, scrambled eggs, and water. Lunch was a little better with a nice salad, easy dressing, the other half of my fruit shake from yesterday and an orange. Tonight for dinner though I crashed and gave in to my bad feelings of myself by eating 8 tacos from Jack In The Box. I had been really proud of myself, but after how my husband had talked to me and talked about other girls I was really feeling disgusted about myself. Although to try and get his words out of my mind I went to the gym and did upper body weights which caused me to feel REALLY SICK due to all the grease from the tacos. As of now I am OFFICIALLY committing to NEVER having another taco from Jack In The Box EVER again, no matter what.

BeachWeek Day 1

Well day 1 of ToneItUp.com BeachWeek went pretty good with a yummy breakfast, a morning workout, healthy snacks, good tasty lunch that ended with dinner and a great evening workout. Breakfast was good with scrambled eggs, very thin whole wheat bread topped with Nutella and green tea. Lunch was great with baked fish, Avacado, and a yummy side salad. Dinner was a salad that was filling and delicious. My after workout recovery was a smoothie that consisted of Strawberry, Blueberry, Mango, and Pineapple with Greek Yogurt and Almond milk. With day 1 I also became willing to try Coconut water and Almond Milk which both taste extremely good. The one thing I don't want to forget either is that I made sure to drink plenty of water with my total coming in at 185oz for the day which is just shy of my 200oz daily goal.

A trying week

Well my weekend went good and Monday was starting off right, or so I thought. Soon what was a good week tail spinned quickly and I had lost complete control over everything, all of the hard work I had been putting myself through no longer mattered because no one else was worried about any one other than what they consider their priorities. Monday and Tuesday I was unable to make it to the gym which means today I am exhausted, sluggish and all around feeling really down. Last night in the midst of chaos and frustration I broke down and had 7 tacos from Jack in the Box which is probably the biggest reason I feel so :( but I started myself back on track this morning. For breakfast I had scrambled eggs and half a piece of toast and lunch was homemade healthy "chicken salad" which was yummy too. I am a little disappointed that I gave in yesterday, but I will hold myself accountable and get back on track.

Feeling great!

This journey has been a huge change from what I had been used to doing all my life. Changing my eating habits and committing to going to the gym has been hard, but I'm loving how I feel after getting my workout finished. Today I feel great, but I am SO sore and I don't think that I have been this sore since the Fire Academy and that was 6 years ago. Also what is helping me feel great is that I have been able to stay on track getting all of my water each day. This journey has been a boost in confidence because I have discovered that if I really commit to something that I can do it. There is a long way still to my goal weight, but as long as I continue to eat healthy and keep moving I will get there!

2 a day weekends

During this journey I have decided that for me to keep a good pace that I would go to the gym 5 days a week. Well last weekend I came to the conclusion that since I have so much time on the weekend I would do 2 a days so that I don't overdo it all at once on those days. Last weekend went well and on 1 visit I did cardio followed by weights on the other visit. Today I did another 2 a day where I did strength training this morning and then did cardio this evening, but the best part is that besides a few sore muscles I feel AMAZING.
Beginning this journey was not easy because I was so afraid to fail after giving up the last time that I tried. Lately I have had days where I get really disappointed at myself that I could have ever let myself go so much after being so dedicated to firefighting. The great part is that firefighting has been one of my biggest motivators to go on this journey, so that once again I can be able to help others.

Chaos in life

For the past month things around my house have been complete chaos. The thing though that has made me feel good about myself is that I use the chaos as motivation to get to the gym instead of using as an excuse not to go like I used to. It is amazing at how great I feel to go to the gym and workout instead of being at home moping around feeling sorry for myself because I cannot change what is going on around me. Lately though that hardest part has been not having support from those closest to me instead it seems that they would rather sabotage my progress.
When I started this journey my husband said that he wanted me to workout with him so I said I would except now I go to the gym and he just wants to stay at home. It has really become hard to understand my family since everyone in my house needs o loose some weight and get in shape, but I'm the only person putting the effort in with the foods and exercise. I just wish I could understand how someone says they want to loose weight but eats junk food and fast food all the time along with not using their free gym membership.
My latest motivator though to get healthy has been from my dad's mom being put in the hospital, a week later my mom was, and then two weeks later on this Monday my mom's mom was put in the hospital. It made me understand that if I don't get serious to loose the weight I might be in the hospital next and it could possibly be soon.
Emotionally I am feeling better about myself than I have in a long time, but physically I still have not reached a point where I can notice a difference. To all of my friends who are supporting me, thank you because you make a HUGE difference for me & motivate me.

Progress on my journey

When I first decided that I was ready to get healthy and fit without using any excuses to stop me I was weighing in at 332lbs. After having spent so many years as a firefighter I could not figure out how I had let myself get away health wise where I was at the point of almost 160 lbs overweight. This journey has had so many rough moments, but I am starting to see results from my hard work of eating healthy and working out.
As I started this phase of my journey I was coming in on the scale at 316lbs. This phase I really decided that I would commit to eat healthy (get rid of junk food & soda), drink LOTS of water (160 oz) & workout in some way EVERY DAY. Well the results of my first week have blown my mind with a 9lbs weightloss and for once I actually feel good about myself because I know I can do it. There is still a long way to go on this journey for getting healthy and fit, but now I know that I CAN DO IT!