New Motivation for my Journey

Lately I have really struggled with staying on track for my workouts, eating healthy and remaining accountable to my health goals. You would think after getting rid of 40 lbs already and starting to feel better about myself I would have a reason to keep going, but instead of gaining confidence I started to lose what I already had. That was though until I met Dolvett from Biggest Loser and EVERYTHING changed for me. His kindness and willingness to talk to me for a few minutes was the boost I needed to know that I am still at the beginning, so that I don't get discouraged.
Who would have thought that someone who is SO well known would take a few minutes to give me advice and treat me like just another person. After living SO long at over 300 pounds I still have moments where I cannot believe that I am REALLY doing this and there is actually a noticeable difference in the weight that I have lost.

The picture on the left was taken Summer 2011 when I was weighing in at my highest of 332 pounds. Well the GREAT thing is that the picture on the right was taken January 2013 after already getting rid of 40 pounds FOREVER!!!!!! To actually look at both of these pictures now is motivation, but also it makes me cry to really see just how much I had let myself go. My goal now is to get healthy, fit and reconditioned to be a firefighter again some day. If I can do this after all that I have been through then you can do it to, just don't give up and keep going!

Chaos in life

For the past month things around my house have been complete chaos. The thing though that has made me feel good about myself is that I use the chaos as motivation to get to the gym instead of using as an excuse not to go like I used to. It is amazing at how great I feel to go to the gym and workout instead of being at home moping around feeling sorry for myself because I cannot change what is going on around me. Lately though that hardest part has been not having support from those closest to me instead it seems that they would rather sabotage my progress.
When I started this journey my husband said that he wanted me to workout with him so I said I would except now I go to the gym and he just wants to stay at home. It has really become hard to understand my family since everyone in my house needs o loose some weight and get in shape, but I'm the only person putting the effort in with the foods and exercise. I just wish I could understand how someone says they want to loose weight but eats junk food and fast food all the time along with not using their free gym membership.
My latest motivator though to get healthy has been from my dad's mom being put in the hospital, a week later my mom was, and then two weeks later on this Monday my mom's mom was put in the hospital. It made me understand that if I don't get serious to loose the weight I might be in the hospital next and it could possibly be soon.
Emotionally I am feeling better about myself than I have in a long time, but physically I still have not reached a point where I can notice a difference. To all of my friends who are supporting me, thank you because you make a HUGE difference for me & motivate me.

Motivation for my weightloss

For many years I have been overweight, actually I cannot tell you the last time I was not because it has been so long.
The beginning to discovering I needed to do this journey was being placed on 6 different meds in 2 months for different health issues. Although last night my husband added to the issue when he told me your a fat lazy witch, you will never loose your weight". So today I am going to my favorite gym and restarting my membership since I live close to one now. The other pushing factor is this week one of my grandmother's has been placed on hospice and the other got news yesterday that she has cancer, so I need to get healthy so I can be around for my family.
This morning I got on the scale weighing 314 lbs, but I am going to make sure that number is GONE and never coming back.